Tomorrow I go and see my neurologist. She is smart, brilliant, patient orientated and just an all round great doctor and lovely person. However, in the past her opinion (which I value greatly) has sometimes been a little conservative. And I need her blessing and referral to take part in a dangerous, experimental, autologous stem cell transplant trial. Do you see my problem here?
So, what to do? I could find another doctor, but I think that is a bad idea seeing as though I am so happy with the one I've got. I could ask my GP to refer, but he probably wouldn't have all the necessary skills. For now I am left with my current neurologist which is OK because as I said, she is a great doctor.
Right now I have one option. Convince her that this is the right thing to do. That this is my best option and I am 100% committed to doing this. And I am. I have a similar thought process to how I tackled my brain surgery. That is, if I had it and it didn't work sure I would be disappointed, but the thought of not having it and not knowing if it worked would be worse. The treatment is there, I know it is there and I want it.
The other argument I get is what if something went wrong? You have a young family and so much to lose. Yes, but on the flip side, I have so much to gain also. I want to dance with my daughter, kick the footy around with my son. I wished I could have taught them both how to ride a bike, but I missed the boat on that one. That was hard. Really hard.
My first weapon will be to use these arguments, secondly, I need to come prepared with results and facts that prove this is the right course of treatment for me, and right now that is what I am going to do. Stop blogging and mindlessly surfing the internet and start preparing. Until next time, stay well:)